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The previous post on “The Secret Life of Husbands“, part of MM’s “Sex & the Muslim Ummah” series, was sort of a milestone post.
It elicited powerful responses, and led to some of the most beneficial discussions on MM.
But having crossed that line only once advances you to the next level of sinfulness.
So you’re first mistake is looking at a woman lustfully.
Another problem was that my family resisted when i suggested that i marry in my early 20s.
Thus, the absence of a halal outlet for this desire is another factor that has brought me to where i am now. Imam Anwar al-Awlaqi mentions it in one of his CD sets.
Over the years I’d made online contacts who had similar “interests” as me.
Falling under the definition of sexual assault are sexual activities as forced sexual intercourse, forcible sodomy, child molestation, incest, fondling, and attempted rape.
Its a slippery slope that ends with you in a place where a Muslim shouldn’t be. Dear reader, what haven’t i tried to give up this addiction?
Reciting Qur’an, going to talks, activism, du’a, all of that and more.
The secret email addresses i set up which no one knew i had but me.
Saving files in deep directories where no one would think of finding them. But there is also an aspect of absurdity about this whole thing.
Knowing that i am a practicing Muslim, knowing that there is a day in which i will have to stand in front of Allah and take the rap for these sins, and not having a single plausible excuse come to my mind which i can bring on that day is a horrible feeling. And also the guilt that comes from leading a double-life and betraying one’s spouse. I’ve seen my early zeal to learn and practise, and potential to be a productive member of this ummah fade over the years as i spent my time – hours and hours in front of the computer getting up to no good.